I woke an hour ago, with this fucking pain in my belly, tooo much oreo’s is not good after not eating any carbs or sugar for 2 weeks. I also felt more bad when i saw my ugly hair this morning, why haven’t i fixed it yet? I look like a caveman! But what should I do, take out the extensions? colour it blonde? cut it really short? I never have issues with my looks (just when I like someone) but that’s another story! Now I’ve been thinking for years about converting into a buddhist but the thing is it’s so hard. I’ve read a lot of buddhist lectures and I get it, but how hard! Only have one sexual partner, No alcohol, no make-up. The thing is I practilly don’t wear any make-up, don’t sex it up that much(?) but I drink, i love having two glasses of wine on my free days just litsening to my 50′s blues and dancing with ,yself and my cup of wine. But the thing is I got so obsessivbe with owning thing, I’m a very material girl, I just don’t feel happy without my Mac, ipad or my cell. That’s what I want to change, just live a simple happy peacefull life, without drama, without having to worry about not having anything. Just do my Yoga and eat my veggies!